A very boring Sunday; made coffee early, read email, FB updates, watched TSN for my sports updates, all in all a typical Sunday morning if I'm not heading to a golf course. The afternoon brought even more boredom; lunch, more FB lurking, flipping through channels to find something worth watching when I came across Castaway with Tom Hanks and Helen Hunt. I've been meaning to watch this movie for a very long time, never caught it in the theatre the first go around and whenever it was on afterI never had the urge to watch. It's 3 freaking hours long... of a guy stuck in a tropical island talking to a volleyball. For the first half of the movie I was critiquing his survival techniques, very poor in my mind but he managed to turn it around and finally make it off the island. 3 years he was stuck out there? True story also... just amazing he made it off with a reasonably sense of sanity, even after talking to Wilson the whole time. I would still be on the island, crossing the ocean would cripple me.
The whole story got me thinking though, the man was thrown into an unfortunate set of circumstances through no fault of his own. I feel like the situation he was in is similar to mine, albeit not as life threatening. Basically it's like this, he had to survive in an environment that he would have never chose because of chance. I've been swimming or adrift for some time now, all because of chance. Ok maybe I could have or should have used better judgment at times; relationships, career choices but the path I've been on for the last 13-14 years is not the one I would have chose or felt was laid out for me.
I won't dwell on the past but having a plan now to better things; family relationships, career choices, this plan has come from the life experiences thrown at me since things went south in Burlington back in '95. Maturity plays a big part, it's highly likely I didn't show enough back then and even now it can be a stretch but as my Dad says: "you can't beat fun for having a good time". So now I welcome the fun but it's tempered with reason and responsibility for the most part.
Why post this? Well because I can and it's therapeutic for me to get these things out, as I have a distinct tendency to internalize conflict and confusion. That's a defense mechanism to prevent making rash decisions which used to happen a lot when I was younger, very vicious temper.
So where will I be in a year? Hopefully in Canada still, employed, working towards security for myself and my family. Resolving certain family situations will come about, I'm prepared for that, even though I know it will be a heated battle. I hope to have traveled to Europe as part of a College group in May (finances need to be focused). Most of all I'll still be having fun and enjoying life. That's my path getting off the feeling of being adrift or life without purpose, the point of this blog update and comparing recent and possible future events to a looong movie.
Thoughts? comments? All are welcome, if you feel like criticizing any of this, save it, that's not welcome. If you feel like adding insight and a suggestion, bring it on.
Thanks for reading!
The whole story got me thinking though, the man was thrown into an unfortunate set of circumstances through no fault of his own. I feel like the situation he was in is similar to mine, albeit not as life threatening. Basically it's like this, he had to survive in an environment that he would have never chose because of chance. I've been swimming or adrift for some time now, all because of chance. Ok maybe I could have or should have used better judgment at times; relationships, career choices but the path I've been on for the last 13-14 years is not the one I would have chose or felt was laid out for me.
I won't dwell on the past but having a plan now to better things; family relationships, career choices, this plan has come from the life experiences thrown at me since things went south in Burlington back in '95. Maturity plays a big part, it's highly likely I didn't show enough back then and even now it can be a stretch but as my Dad says: "you can't beat fun for having a good time". So now I welcome the fun but it's tempered with reason and responsibility for the most part.
Why post this? Well because I can and it's therapeutic for me to get these things out, as I have a distinct tendency to internalize conflict and confusion. That's a defense mechanism to prevent making rash decisions which used to happen a lot when I was younger, very vicious temper.
So where will I be in a year? Hopefully in Canada still, employed, working towards security for myself and my family. Resolving certain family situations will come about, I'm prepared for that, even though I know it will be a heated battle. I hope to have traveled to Europe as part of a College group in May (finances need to be focused). Most of all I'll still be having fun and enjoying life. That's my path getting off the feeling of being adrift or life without purpose, the point of this blog update and comparing recent and possible future events to a looong movie.
Thoughts? comments? All are welcome, if you feel like criticizing any of this, save it, that's not welcome. If you feel like adding insight and a suggestion, bring it on.
Thanks for reading!
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